First of all ~ It's a girl!!! Charlie Madeline was born on April 22nd (Earth Day) at 1:05 pm. She weighed in at 8 lbs 6 oz and 20.5 inches long. She is healthy, beautiful and just perfect.. as is Mom Jennifer.
There are just no words to describe the emotions and the love that I am feeling right now. The first time I saw her, as they wheeled her into the nursery to run all those test, and poke and prod her ~ she just took my breath away. And then when they placed her in my arms.... I still tear up just thinking about it ~ the overwhelming sense of love... and so much more. It's so totally different than the love of a child from a parent but I honestly don't know how to describe it. This little girl has captured my heart and my soul so completely. It's amazing and yet feels so natural.
Charlie was born via c-section and I was with Jen up until about 15 minutes before they came to take her to the OR. We all (me, Julz, her Dad and his wife)left to give J&J some time alone. As I walked out of the room and down the hall, I just lost it ~ just started sobbing. Poor Julz didn't know what to think. I think it was the build up of a lot of things leading up to this plus the concern for Jen, about to undergo major surgery. I managed to make it into the rest room and dab some water on my face and calm down and come out just in time for them to wheel her past me and into the OR. She was sitting up and smiling and I blew her a kiss and smiled back as best I could but she saw (she told me later) that I was a wreck ~ aw crap, just writing this has got me going again!!!